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…where did the love go?

Once…
it was all there
in the timbre of his voice
when he spoke her name
the softness of his lips
as he kissed her brow
the gentleness of his fingers
when he held her hand
it was in the radiance of his smile
when he saw her face
the look in his eyes
while gazing at her
the warmth of his embrace
as he held her close

he laughs it off
says she jests
in her heart she knows
where once was love
only ashes remain

Re-posted for D.M.

If only we had known…

The first time it happened
She wore dark glasses, wept all day
Hormones, we sniggered

The second time it happened
Walked into a wall she said
Alcohol, we smugly declared
Signed her cast, wished her well

The third time it happened
Fell down the stairs she said
And wouldn’t smile
Lover’s tiff, we winked

The fourth time it happened
A bee stung her she said
Frolicking in the park, we laughed

The fifth time it happened
She didn’t come in
We heard she was broken
Like a toy
Which no-one could
Ever
Put back together again

If only
We had known
We cried

Re-posted for D.M.

RIP Isaac Hayes

I love the way some of his songs are prefixed by rap-like storytelling. Listening to ‘I Stand Accused’, approximately 10 minutes long, always makes me smile. The pathos!

‘By the time I get to Phoenix’ is also long. Approximately, 18 minutes long.

Although very similar, Isaac Hayes’s voice is not as rich and as expressive as Barry White’s. When exploring his discography however, it is clear to see that his music is very influential.

Isaac Hayes IS a soul music icon.

R.I.P.

Ankle beads…

In darkness
he sits
and waits
silently
she glides through the open door
the tinny tinkle
of the silver bells
on her ankle beads &
the staccato beat
of his heart
serenading
her arrival

How could they?

Heart filled with hurt which increases and grows
What they do to the voiceless this child knows

Sent here to protect soldiers with big egos
Of these men and pain this child knows

Come here to serve instead turmoil follows
The sickness of human nature this child knows

That one promises food laughing with his fellows
A full stomach won’t stop the ache this child knows

Viciously abused as if something she owes
Her life has forever been altered this child knows

Not a soul to save her when her blood flows
There will be no-one to turn to this child knows

Swaggering like earth owners and heroes
Nothing will happen to them this child knows

She wishes to fly far away from her woes
Nothing will ever change this child knows

Peacekeepers ‘abusing children’

For UN spokesman Nick Birnback to say that it “was impossible to ensure “zero incidents” within an organisation that has up to 200,000 personnel serving around the world” is a just a load of old cobblers.

This abuse of human rights is happening because the survivors are “orphans, children separated from their parents and families, and children in families dependent on humanitarian assistance”, according to the report by Save the Children (.pdf file) . In other words, voiceless people.

The very people that organisations such as the UN and Save the Children are meant to be supporting and caring for.

The poet, W. H. Auden wrote, “Evil is unspectacular and always human, and shares our bed and eats at our own table”. How true.

International Carnival of Pozitivities (2.10)

redribbon1.jpgI am extremely pleased, proud and honoured to present the International Carnival of Pozitivities (2.10).

The Carnival consists of interesting, moving and sometimes funny articles, poems and vidoes by people affected by HIV/AIDs. I hope you will enjoy reading them as much as I did.

Forward to the Carnival,

We begin in Africa. Nata, in Botswana, is a village of 5000 people located on the edge of the Makgadikgadi Pans. Unfortunately, HIV/AIDS is having a devastating effect on the people of this small village. Botswana has the second highest HIV infection rate in Africa. Melody and Martha write entertainingly, and with lots of pictures, about the day the AIDS Fair came to Nata! posted at The Nata village blog. Melody and Martha also celebrate their blog’s 2nd anniversary. The Nata village blog is dedicated to the people of Nata who despite enormous losses and challenges still have the courage and determination to fight the ravages of this pandemic.

Giles Crouch, Slimconomy, writes about the many wild and weird claims made by people (unscrupulous and/or misguided) regarding the cure for HIV/AIDs and highlights the fact that the Internet has become the place where people can make declarations that have yet to be officially approved and especially with regard to herbal cures. “The Web means anything can be published. Any claims made. When people are suffering from a fatal disease, certainly any option will be investigated, herbs included”, he writes.

Steve Schalchlin is a songwriter, singer, pianist, actor, proto-blogger and internet legend amongst his many accomplishments. He writes about his recent performance in Chicago and writes that the group he performed for were “from the Loyola University Stritch School of Medicine, and I always love singing for medical students to remind them that patients are real people”. He hopes the students will remember ”we are vulnerable and we are scared and we usually feel helpless when caught up in the system. It’s hard enough to survive when you’re healthy in this world”.

Yerom presents a very funny video on Safer Sex. Rather risqué (be careful where you watch it) but hilarious, YouTube - AIDS/SIDA | L’avion (The Plane). In English, the text basically reads: “At least they had safe sex…”

“A recent study revealed that more than 30 percent of people living with HIV in New York City are 50 years old or older. Most have been infected for decades. But what’s worrying is the older adults who’re getting new infections”. Supermansaga presents a news report which highlights the worrying rise of HIV/AIDs among older people.

Deb Serani, Dr. Deb, presents a beautiful video - Love is Love is Love which shows us that there is no difference when it comes to love.

I love reading about road trips i.e. something going wrong with the car, the pit stops, the traveling companions etc and Shawn Decker in his blog entitled My Pet Virus does not disappoint. Shawn, who lives positively, writes about traveling with his wife Gwenn to “Milford, PA, to speak for the Pike County AIDS Awareness Day, and the 6-hour trek took close to 10 hours, delayed by traffic, rain and fog”. Despite the ups and down and the minor irritations, the trip is a success. Shawn writes “Gwenn and I spend a lot of time educating about HIV/AIDS and explaining that, by and large, we lead a pretty normal life with my pet virus”.

“I can honestly say that after 24 years of living with HIV I have been angry at it more than once. I have been angry for many reasons and I have been angry because HIV didn’t take me like it did so many others”, writes Mike in a very moving post. There is some hope, however. ”I know that some of my anger will diminish once the first signs of spring appear but some of them just don’t go away at the changing of the season. I can only hope that on most days the anger is balanced out with hope and dreams of what tomorrow may bring”.

Moffie tells it like it is in a post entitled: The HIV Closet. “If you are HIV + and not comfortable with your new state of health, you need to read this and absorb its content to your life…I don’t care if you are a Gay person, a Straight woman or Straight man: it is a part of you and a part of who you are. You might deny it, but to do so is not only futile, but is also very damaging to your own psyche. In the same way, HIV is now part of who you are. It will be with you until you die, and that is just the way it is.”

Brian Diggs of BlackAIDS.org writes about a presentation by Julian Bond, the NAACP Chairman speaking out on behalf of people living with HIV/AIDS. “A veteran civil rights advocate and former Georgia state representative and senator, Bond, 68, said he’s motivated to advocate on behalf of people diagnosed with HIV/AIDS because many of them are rendered silent by the stigma attached to the disease and “suffer alone” as a result.”

And on cue, the British Columbia People with AIDS Society write on HIV/AIDs stigma and calls for its end. ”Stigmatization is a social practice that brands an individual or group as disgraceful and devalues them because of some actual or perceived characteristic. It is a powerful force that negatively influences not only the way an individual or group is viewed, but also often the individual or group’s self-perception and self-image”.

The Alliance of AIDS Services, Carolina, is organising an AIDSWalk + Ride, Raleigh, NC, USA on Saturday May 8 to raise funds to support programs and services for persons living with HIV/AIDS in the region. Further information can be found on Ron’s blog, 2sides2ron.

Paul Kidd presents a video, We are the world posted at buggery.org.

Wille J. Phillips, talented author, artist and rap artist, debuts and guest writes over at 2sides2ron in a post which is the first in a series of chapters of Willie’s science-fiction martial arts novel, Godfist Legend: Zero7. Willie’s work is not HIV-related and offers a brief respite from the norm.

Bill Mann, poet also debuts and guests and presents a lovely poem at 2sides2ron. The poem is entitled “Resurrection of Renewal” and includes the following lines:

Coming of Spring
Revels a new call
Of awakening
A powerful resurrection.

The wonderfully named, Shadowstar ex Machina, aka, Willie J. Phillips guests also at 2sides2ron and presents a poem “Sometimes Forget”.

On his blog, dropdeadhappy, Mark Kokocki presents an article on shame written by guest writer, M. Dewayne Benson, comedian, poet, writer and POZ speaker. “What echoes in my ear is that everyone seems to feel shame on some level. Why is this? Certainly shame devalues us and our self esteem…As adults we should learn to accept and love who we are and what we have done! Otherwise we only hold ourselves back from change and/or progress in this life”.

Last but not least, Gug, GayUganda, writes about the complexity and strengths of the extended family in Africa. In the story of his uncle, who is terminally ill, Gug shows how differently people deal with death. Of his uncle he writes, “He is sick, and dying, and knows it. He has fallen back to his extended family, and they surround him. Reconciled to death’s appointment, he can even afford to crack morbid jokes, alarming and embarrassing the relatives who are distraught and fearful. But he is ready, and I hope when mine comes, I am as ready!”.

Gug also writes about Lesbians and HIV in Africa and the problems ‘of a hidden, closeted society…A society of the shadows”, where HIV prevention campaigns fail to address gay people because of “official inertia and homophobia”.




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